ups and downs (or, locked up)

jumped out of bed this morning and threw my pants on. unfortunately, they were not the same pair of pants that i had been wearing yesterday, which means that when i locked the door shut from the inside and pulled it shut, i was there with shoes, pants, underwear, a t-shirt, and my phone. this caused me to reflect on what it is like to have your options limited. i had no wallet. i couldn't buy lunch. i couldn't get bus fare. i couldn't drive my car. i couldn't go put a jacket on or have a place to take a nap. i couldn't get in at work or school without someone to let me in. i was immediately shoved into a world where my options were extremely limited. eventually i was able to get someone in the office to let me in, but what a blessing that apartment was! the time was good for reflecting on what i have and what i carry with me. what i carry within me. who can look me in the face and recognize me. thank you jesus for what i have. thank you jesus for the swift kick in the gut to make me realize it.